Not what I was expecting!

"We will be running a big article on you and your new book and you can expect to see it in this Thursday's paper." I close my eyes, drift off into a quiet slumber and awake to find myself anxiously rushing down to the local newspaper stand. I eagerly buy three copies of the paper, rush home and recklessly throw myself onto my living room couch. I immediately notice my face on the cover of the paper and the title of my book boldly displayed underneath. With delight I make my way to the fifth page and proudly stare at the headline which states "SAINT JAMES WOMAN AUTHORS BOOK" I begin reading and unfortunately it doesn't take me very long to realize that my eleven year old daughter could have prepared a better article than the one that I was forced to continue to read. To my dismay I quickly discover some grammatical errors, incorrect information, repetitive words and mispellings. My heart begins to pound and my eyes begin to flood. I continue to read on only to become infuriated over the fact that my very first debut, my very first introduction to my community and the very first article that has ever been written on me, SUCKS! I try to stay calm but I cannot stop myself from circling words that are spelled wrong, words that sound like they came from an eight year old and words such as "she said" that were used about fifty times. I begin to think that possibly I am being too critical, maybe it's me or perhaps this reporter just writes poorly. I also begin to think that it is within the realm of possiblity that this reporter threw this article together, that she is a "want to be author", that she is in some way envious, that she singled me out or that she does not take pride in her work. I am not exactly sure how a simple article on a local author turned into such a hodgepodge. I cannot grasp the concept that a writer would not cherish her ability to bring forth the magic and amazement of language and appreciate the control she has in grouping together powerful and moving words. I did choose to let go of my disappointment and frustration and to take something positive out of my negative newspaper experience. I realize how passionate I feel about wordage, about my choice of words and about the work that I create. I realize that I am fascinated by diction, that having the power or ability to use language is a gift and that words to me are like candies to a child. They are flavorful, intense, eloquent, mellow, expressive, unique, vivid, vibrant and warm. I realize that I do not like not being in control of how someone else represents me or my work. I am aware that during the process of writing a book, having it published and getting publicity, things are not going to go my way and I understand that I need to be extremely flexible. I chalk this one up to experience but the beautiful thing is that with each experience I gain knowledge. I know that I appreciate the freedom to choose my words and use them however I would like to and I also know that some things are just beyond my control.
Luv Debbie







